Weigh Down with my church

       I am here again, Back up to 212.8 lbs last night.  Why am I here again.  I thought I said bye to 212 this summer, and again last January, and again the summer before that.   To say that weight is something that always bothered me, well I can't say that.  There were those days when slim boys Jordache jeans were the norm.  I was skinny, straight as a board, from top to bottom.
       I started to get a little shape.   Then I went to college.  I began eating fast.  I had to get to work as soon as I got off.  I worked 45 minutes away, and I had to get there fast.  I began grabbing fast food and eating it on the way.  Probably a better word would be inhaling it.  The freshmen 15, was actually 30.  The 30 turned in to 50, which turned in to 70.  I really consider myself 70 lbs overweight.  But truthfully, I don't want to lose 70 lbs.  I want to lose 60.  I want to be 150-155.  I do not care about a "BO-Kini" as my boys call it.  I want to be able to play with my boys without physically hurting.  I want to be able to buy a pair of jeans and a shirt and put it on and feel good. 
       I can lose weight.  When I start obsessing, I can channel my inner control freak and lose weight.  But I am depriving myself.  I am setting myself up for binges.  I feel guilty for going over... I can do it.  But the moment I go back to not obsessing.  I see the scale rise again.  SO if I remain obsessive about every single calorie I put in my body, I can lose weight.  But if I waiver, even a few days.....
       My pastors wife put together a wellness class.  A whole spirit of wellness class.  She is using a couple of different resources, including the Weigh Down Diet.  So far I figure the basics are this,

• Eat when you are hungry, and when you feel full, simply stop.   If your not hungry, simply drink a glass of tea with the family. 
• Rank your food, decide what you want the most, and what you like the best.  Eat that first!
• Divide your portions. Wrap up the rest for later.
• Realize that God created our body and knows what it needs to survive, so always relinquish to him.  He will support you.  You can't do this alone.

      Five weeks.  This program is going to last five weeks.  It is free.  Well I bought the book off Amazon for 25 cents + 3.99 shipping.   But the expense I have put out on Weight Watchers, I think I can invest $4.24 in the next five weeks.  I don't want to be obsessive about losing weight, and that's really what happens when I count calories.   The best part of our group is the number of committed souls in our group.  We can support each other. 

      I'll keep you posted.  I really want to excel, what do I have to lose????